i seriously hate how i always come up with an excuse to not go somewhere i’m invited bc i wouldn’t know anyone. i’m so scared to feel awkward and i get embarrassed over stupid shit and i hate it. i’m going this weekend. i will hate every second of it or i will have so much fun, but i won’t know unless i go. i have to go. i have to.
i’ve seriously never been so emotional in my life, i don’t understand where all of this is coming from. gabby needs to get off work fast before i explode